my wish

Nanti bie datang sana, bie nak

1. mkn bakso kat wong solo (aritu teringin, tak dpt)

2. g karaoke dgn syg (nak nyanyi lagu romantik khas utk syg)

3. nak spend time berdua je kat jubli (itupun klu tak hujan)

aduhh rindu ni makin menggunung..loveyousomuch my love

Kenali syg kenali bie

Syg suka makan ayam penyet,

Bie suka mkn tempe goreng

Syg suka air nescafe

Bie suka air teh o limau ais

Syg cepat naik angin

Bie cepat merajuk

syg kuat tido

bie pun kuat tido

hehe

lagi apa?

Bie tak tau

Bgtau lah yeee..

banyak kot lagi yang bie tak tau psl hati budi syg... 

bara

Bie rasa sgt2 happy ada nya sayang dalam hidup bie.  Tiap hari asyik teringat saat2 kita bersama. Saat syg berada dalam pelukan bie..saat bie belai syg..saat bie kiss syg..bie tak pnh lupa semua tu…semua tu saat yang paaaaling indah dalam hidup bie..memang waktu terlalu singkat ketika habiskan masa bersama..hmm..bila la dpt jumpa lagi…rindu syg..tiap2 hari rindu…

Lagu ni khas untuk cintaku..mmuuuaaaaahhh..loveyou so much syg…

Just a little from my heart

Syg, ingt tak masa smpai hotel aritu, bie nangis..

Tau tak nape bie nangis?sbb bie rasa bie tak dapat bahagiakan syg..sbb bie rasa bie teruk sgt..bie tak pandai jaga hati syg wpun seluruh jiwa raga ni mencintai syg..satu lagi bie nangis sbb dah mengheret syg dlm masalah yang bie hadapi..bie tak nak syg tau masalah bie..bie taknak syg susah hati sbb bie..

Rindu yang terubat

Akhirnya penantian berakhir. Dua puluh haribulan januari kita bertemu.Walaupun di saat itu hati kita berdua sakit. Maafkanku sayang kerna telah membuatmu terluka. Tapi puas bila dapat cerita segalanya yang kuhadapi depan matamu. Sangat comel bila gf tampar pipi. Tiga puluh tujuh jam masa bersama sememang nya tidak cukup..

Gf saya semakin cantik..tak tau apa rahsianya..ce citer..tu pun dia dok kata ada jerawat lah..eleh sejuta jerawat ada pun, bie tetap syg lah!!

Best sgt dapat spend time dgn syg..paling best dapat lepak kat jubli tu angin sejuk nye..eh silap, paling best mestilah masa berdua duaan kan kan kan..nanti kita pi jubli lagi ye..date kat situ..Haykal wat lawak jaa..penat nak gelak…tapi bie sedih sbb masa spend berdua dgn syg tak byk..
makan ayam penyet sedap..baru la bie tau napa gf bie ni suka sgt mkn ayam penyet sbb sedap..

Masa dlm bas waktu balik, bie rindu sgt kat syg..padahal baru beberapa minit..hmm..sedih sbb bejauhan dgn gf..bertuah bie dpt gf cantik, baik hati, kuat naik angin..hehe..

bie try cari masa utk jumpa syg lagi..demi utk sayang..

love you so much syg................

sembilan belas

Hari ini sembilan belas haribulan.

 Ku ingati tiap kali tarikh ni kerna ini tarikh ku jatuh cinta pada dia.

 Ku tahu dia tidak ingt tarikh seperti ni..bg dia tarikh ni tidak penting, 

tapi bg ku tarikh ni penting kerna dia lafazkan kata cinta padaku..

syg, bie miss you so much, love you so much..and 

really need you

T_T

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rush

salam,
syg sorry bie tgh ada masalah besar
anyway i will meet you
7 pagi jumaat tunggu ya
rindu sgt
i will tell you
sorry nak cpt

bie risau

sayang, bie try call syg masuk voicemail..tau tak bie risau giler..dah la syg tak sihat..tu lagi buat bie risau..then bila dpt sms syg, baru bie lega..huhu..nak nangis tau tak..takut apa2 jadi kat syg..
pastu tau2 je g makan kfc..jeles laaa..amboi sedap nye dia makan kfc tak ajak bie yer..

yang mana satu?

okay, penat gelak sebab ada orang tu gelabah giler takut bie ada kat luar umah dia.

yang mana satu eah umah sayang?huhuhu...

rindu

bie rindu syg

tapi syg tak percaya

bie takkan makan selagi syg tak percaya

biarlah badan bie lemah cmna pun

tapi cinta bie tetap kuat utk syg

good news

after i just finished my exam paper, and ask permission from dr to out from the class, she asked me to send a soft copy of project. i was surprised because i'm wondering why she needs that? she said that our project will be included in chapter book. Subhanallah...really don't believe that our project is selected to be included..thanks God coz all of our little effort counted in for chapter book.
and you..i miss you...but i don't have a strength to talk to you for the time being...my body still in rehab..still in trauma..
 last time when  i talked to you, suddenly i slow down my voice because i'm crying..not because i have someone else with me at that time (as u accused)

my all

no words from me, but mariah carey can help me convey the message thru this song

You Really Wouldn't Know

그대 없이 난 안돼요

I can't without you

눈을 감아도 그대가 보여

I still can see you even though close my eyes 

화장을 해봐도 눈물에 번져버리는 마음이 약한 여자랍니다

I am a girl who her tears will blur her make up even though she tried to and with a delicate heart

그저 울고만 있죠

I can only cry

물한모금 못했죠 

I can't even drink a sip of water

그댄 어떻게 지내고 있나요

And how are you

사랑하는 사람아

The one who I love

보고 싶은 내 사람아

My one who I'm missing of

바쁜 하루에도 그대 생각 멈추지 않아

I can't stop thinking about you even though with a busy day

얼마나 아프고 또 얼마나 그리운지

How pain am I and how am I missing you

그댄 정말 모를거예요

You really wouldn't know about it

편지도 썼다 지워요 

I wrote a letter then rubbed off

전활 걸고서 다시 끊어요

I called you and end it again

내 하루는 온통 그대생각뿐이에요

My day is all only about you

아무일도 난 할수 없어요

I can't even do anything

많이 보고 싶어요

I miss you a lot

너무 그리워져요

I'm too missing of you

그댄 어떻게 지내고 있나요

And how are you

사랑하는 사람아

The one who I love

보고 싶은 내 사람아

My one who I'm missing of

바쁜 하루에도 그대 생각 멈추지 않아

I can't stop thinking about you even though with a busy day

얼마나 아프고 또 얼마나 그리운지

How pain am I and how am I missing you

그댄 정말 모를거예요

You really wouldn't know about it

하늘에 외치는 말

Words that shout to the sky

하지 못했던 그말

Words that I can't say

그대때문에 행복했다는 말

Words that I'm happy because of you

사는동안 그대 내게준 추억으로 하룰 견디며 기다릴테니까

I will pass my days and wait for it with those memories that you gave me when I still alive 

너무나 그리워

I miss you very much

이토록 그리워

I miss you forever

날 떠나지 말아요

Don't leave me

떠나가면 난 안돼요

I can't if you leave me

아무리 잊어도 생각나는 사람이니까

Because you are the one who I will think of even though I tried hard to forgot about 

어디에 있나요

Where are you

죽도록 보고 싶은데

I miss you so badly

나는 그댈 볼수 없어요

But I can't see you

눈물나게 불러봅니다

I'm calling you deeply

It's Okay Even If It Hurts

It's okay even if i'm blind,
It's okay even if i can't breathe,
If i could just see you once, if i could just give you all my heart.
How much more do i have to miss you? So you could know my heart?
How much more do i have to cry and cry? So the tears could dry?

Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it punishment of loving you too much?
Even if i were to lose everything, it's okay as long as i have you.
Even if my heart shatters while loving you,
Even if my heart's all worn when waiting for you,
It's okay because i love you,
I'm okay even if it hurts.

The further i turn away to forget you, the more i miss you,
What should i do?
Even when you say it's not right, to keep avoiding you. You are the only one for me.
What should i do?

Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it punishment of loving you too much?
Even if i were to lose everything, it's okay as long as i have you.
Even if my heart shatters while loving you,
Even if my heart's all worn when waiting for you,
It's okay because i love you,
I'm okay even if it hurts.

Even if i get poisoned and pricked,
I can't stop my love for you,
I will wait for you until whenever,
I will endure even if it keeps hurting,
Because of loving you more, it's okay even if tears fall down.
It's okay even if it hurts.

mengaku

kepala dihentak dihentak
dipaksa untuk mengaku bersalah
tuduhan  itu aku dipaksa berkata Ya
aku tidak buat semua itu
untuk apa aku mengaku?
supaya kau dapat menghukumku?
supaya kau puas membelasahku?
supaya kau dapat sembur cacian dan makian kemuka ku?
supaya kau dapat ludah kata-kata kesat kemuka ku?
akhirnya kau dapat apa?
kau dapat kepuasan atau kemenangan?
menang sebab aku mengaku?
berbaloikah?
aku benci situasi bilamana aku dipaksa mengaku aku bersalah
apatah lagi orang yang aku sayang berbuat demikian padaku
bagai hilang segala rasa belas ihsan nya padaku
atau kasih sayang nya selama ini hanya pura-pura
dua itu saja kemungkinan yang ada
tapi bagiku
andai kau puas menghentakku
terpulanglah..
aku rela demi melihat kemenanganmu
demi untuk orang yang aku sayang
samada mama atau kamu
dan trauma ini terus menyelubungiku
hidup ini juga bukan lagi untukku
Tuhan jemputlah aku