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although there are lot things i want to say..i couldn't voice it out. i wanna say i love you..but i know you won't believe me.every little thing i say, you never believe me.what you only do is blame me and say i lie, and I'm not lying..for how many times i should defend myself to tell you that i'm not lying? so silent is my action now and my tears is my best friend now..i can't do anything, except..missing you everyday and see you in my phone before i close my eyes every night. it's really hurt..isn't it? and one more thing, you said that u never care what i want to do..yes..that's the words..i know who i am in your heart..i'm nothing to you..i'm not good enough for you..that is why you never care what i do and about me. what can i do if u said so?i can't do nothing..i could not force you to love me, to care me..that was your decision.
everyday, i just question my self about you..i'm wondering what are you doing right now, if you go out at late night, what time you back at home..does it safe for you to be there..what you eat, when you wake up..i miss all the moments.
O Allah..please..i want to make her happy..can anybody help me to stop crying?no..only her..
O Allah, can i make her happy?no..or maybe.because i was even fail make her happy during her birthday a few days ago...does she love me?i do not know.does she miss me?i do not know.or she may have someone there..that is why she ignoring me now..